yeah, i usually don’t like talking about personal things to people but i need to let it out. and though this is a blog about losing weight, i’m going to make it about relationships for the next five minutes. first boyfriend, current boyfriend, derek. i love this kid with all my heart. he doesn’t think he’s good enough and neither does the rest of the world which makes it hard but he’s cared for me more than anyone else and he can make me feel so amazing at times. but there are countless times where he’d treat me poorly because he’s having an off day and i just have to stand there and take it until he realizes that he did something he shouldn’t have done. at times, this realization will take days to realize. but when he’s ready, he’ll sincerely apologize and start feeling like poop for treating me the way he did. then i go ahead and tell him that it’s okay and that i love him. he knows he was wrong but from when he does something wrong to when he admits it, all the time in between, i’ll spend hurting. 

okay back to pictures of skinny girlies.